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The Seven of Disks- Failure

Posted: January 21, 2012 in Musick, Uncategorized

This is my life card.

August 27th, 1979. Look it up. This is the current I am cursed to surf. Goddamnit!

Luckily I have the Left Hand Path.

Luckily I can add to that Thelema, and the only weapon one could ever wield against this card: My True Will.

Fuck failure.

Everyone fails. Those who master failure are the most successful of us all.

Forever if I draw failure in a reading I will say it is time to manifest your god form or die.

Failure can’t phase a god. You are the Lord. You are the Master.

What is failure? Circumstance:

In my Qabalistic working I am calling the Ladder of Swords I work towards the 5 of Swords: Defeat. This is also Geburah in the Qabalistic tree of life. This is the triangle begun with Thiphereth. This is HGA territory. Geburah is a place of holy anger. Holy fire. Where righteousness springs forth.

In my own journal I have recorded this about Geburah:

Geburah is judgment. It is Karma. Geburah is truth.

Geburah is the casting out of impedance.

Geburah is judgment.

Geburah is a Martian Sephiroth!

According to Qabalah: A Magical Primer by John Bonner:  “The primary function of the 5th Sephirah is to strengthen and direct the creative impulse, adding the element of discipline necessary for its eventual manifestation.”

According to Bonner Geburah is a feminine sphere, in spite of all its masculine attributes. This is like a Valkarie.


A war goddess.

Geburah is the Sephiroth of Nietzsche.

Nietzsche endorses all of the qualities a Magus should master in Geburah.

Geburah is the fear of the Lord.

Geburah is Islam; submission.

Geburah is the home of the Seraphim.

Khamael is the Angel over Geburah, and the leader of the Seraphim.

So I am using one of my favorite metal bands Neurosis to aid me in the meditation of attaining this mindset.

Burn is the first song I master for this meditation.  Let us examine the lyrics:


You lie in the snow, cold but not dead
stare into the sun, long since its last heat

feel the freeze burn skin
salt your open wounds
a burning desire clears your eyes
a willful air fills your lungs

you choke your first breath of wildfire and ocean’s depth
climb out of your hole, see your spirit take form

this world of cold stone gives nothing in return
to those who sleep while the restless burn
there are the few driven to flame
most are content to drown in the wake of dreams

the trail lies overground
across the years fade out of light
ever growing dim to an age in the dark
grasp from your soul a don’t let it steal your eyes

This is how I feel during a good Resh.


Posted: April 24, 2011 in Musick, Uncategorized

Hate Speech By ConSec

ConSec is my musical chaos magic(k) project. At least thats how I can describe it to personal satisfaction most concisely.

Think of it as a shamanic drum chant in a Cthulhu cult.

Musically you will either take to it, or think it sucks. It is definitely not comfortable back ground. I do vocals along with my wife. Its poetry. In fact I have tried to book ConSec for a poetry reading, which may still happen.

The name ConSec comes from the name of the evil corporation in Cronenberg’s awesome film Scanners.  In the film ConSec creates psychics as part of an arms manufacturing wing of their corporation.

We try to channel that vibe. We are the evil corporation, much like a band we really admire: Laibach channels the evil dictator.

We are the anti-life equation from Lord Darkseid in D.C. Comics.

We are the ultimate villain-core.

But I post this here because I definitely consider ConSec to be part of our occult work. The way these songs are made are very much part of a Bacchic drum circle. We often open our jam sessions with me giving tarot cards to each member of ConSec, sigil drawing is also a common part of the process, we are trying to channel very dark inner energies.

This song instructs you to evolve into a wolf. A concept I believe I will continue to develop as part of my current magic(k)al work.

Evolve into a wolf.