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Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

I started reading this book on Google Books and quickly exhausted all of its available pages. I was pretty much hooked from the get-go. Mostly due to my recent fascination with the cult of Assassins.

I recently read a wonderful book called Cannabis: A History by Martin Booth. In this book the Islamic history of marijuana smoking is extensively discussed, including the rumors that the Assassins were avid users of this herb, called the Hashishin by some for their alleged use of hashish. However, Martin Booth asserts that there is no evidence that the Assassins ever had systematic use of cannabis by the Assassins, and that this was probably just slander against them by their enemies.

He wrote that very little is known about the Assassins.

Though this certainly sparked my curiosity, I became irrevocably obsessed with the Assassins after hearing Bil Laswell’s album Hashisheen: The End of the Law.

This album is difficult to describe. But to those who are already in the know, the beat movement, jazz, and this sort of 50s hipsterism was way ahead of the curve when it came to pondering the Assassins. In part, just by making shit up.

William S. Burroughs was particularly keen on pondering and simultaneously inventing the Assassins.

To me, the secret society of the Assassins is what this book is all about.

I don’t really care about the Templars, and this book didn’t reveal anything particularly exciting about the Templars. I know there is a ton of people, including probably all Dan Brown fans, who love the Templars and could read about the Templars all day. But from what I could tell from this book, the Templars were basically solid chivalrous medieval christians who were hardcore about the crusades.

Just a bunch of stand-up guys. That’s also Wassermans’ take on the Masons as far as I can tell.

Now back to the Assassins. Oh yes.

For those of you who play the video game Assassins Creed much of what I write here will be old news. Though I have yet to play this game every time I try to wow my friends with interesting trivia about the Assassins they are merely hearing my banter about what has already been very nicely put into a popular video game.

Though I would add that if you read this book you will be able to differentiate between the real and myth of that game. The game seems to indulge many of the popular myths about the Assassins.

Now, my first question is did the Assassins smoke pot? I don’t know. No one really knows. The term Hash-shi-shin may have been a way that other Muslims spread propaganda against them. By saying that they were basically pot heads. Cannabis use thrived in the middle east, and we really get it from them in the west. So this would not have necessarily been an obscure insult.

Though it is entirely possible because the Assassins routinely practiced very mystical, very esoteric, and in my opinion extremely forward thinking futuristic versions of Islam.

Wasserman goes into great depth about the historical setting and the cultural shifts that Islam was undergoing, and more importantly the Ismaili sect of Islam which has Shia roots and teaches that the world at any time hosts a living messianic super being called the hidden imam (which mainstream Shia also believe in). But, speaking as a radical, neo-beatnik, aesthetic terrorist who listens to music inspired by revolt, the Ismaili version is much more interesting.

At times the leader of the Assassins would have the clout, charisma and vision to make their followers wonder if they were in the presence of this great Buddha.

Sometimes these guys were extremely libertine, forbidding Sharia law (all the repressive Muslim strictures) and enforcing a kind of liberalism and modernity of culture which really boggles a historically literate mind to know this flourished a thousand years ago.

The most interesting character of the book is easily the leader of the Syrian Assassins, who’s stories read like the modern DC Vertigo comic Hellblazer, who’s star is a former punk rock singer who happens to be a demonological prodigy, a Faust, a Merlin, an Aleister Crowley.

This aesthetic and philosophy, this incarnation of memes, has deep roots in Islam and the Assassins were a particularly fascinating historical fruit of this phenomena.

The book is worth it for that part, at least. But if you are into Templars, then Wasserman comes highly recognized for his expertise and I sincerely hope you are pleased.

I was a little bored. I don’t blame Wasserman. I blame the Templars.

Love is the law. Love under will.

Do what thou will shall be the whole of the Law.

Recently I have taken an interest in Ouija.

It is not the first time in my life I have had this interest, as an adolescent I used the Ouija a handful of times. Each time my companions and I  felt as though a demonic presence was conjured by the board and we would suddenly stop using it, scared shitless!

It was like clock work. We would always end up feeling extremely creeped out and violated by whatever was talking to us on the board. There were usually threats, and inappropriate comments. I remember one particular time where the session ended with all that and a giant terrifying storm rolling in. Probably pure coincidence.

Of course, this is not assuming that one of my compatriots was not taking liberty with the planchette and just playing a huge joke on the rest of us.

One should also familiarize themselves with the ideomotor effect.

The ideomotor effect is basically unconscious movement. Little muscle spasms made by the mind, but not with the conscious control of the thinker. One must always be mindful of these kinds of explanations, and accept them as a part of the work. I prefer to set them as parameters,  that is, if I can assume its true and still find the thing worth doing.

Everyone it seems also knows the story of the Exorcist, the famous case from which the film was based in which a young boy is contacted by an entity known as Captain Howdy, who later causes the boy to have something between a psychiatric malfunction and a real demonic possession. There is a pretty good skeptical article reviewing the whole affair though, and one should read it.

An interesting personal anecdote is that when I first watched the Exorcist, about the same age I began experimenting with Ouija, I was by myself at my parents house and the pipes burst in their bathroom. This caused giant water bubbles to appear on the walls with the water accumulating behind the acrylic wall paint. It made a very loud and scary roar as this problem was happening. Once again, I was scared shitless!

Now it has been close to 20 years since these early experiments and I find myself experimenting again.

My first attempt was with my podcast co-host and local magickal podcasting partner Diana Sparx, and our friend who goes by the nickname Shmooie.

I was very enthusiastic during this game of Ouija, but mostly whatever we evoked was giving us nothing but gibberish. This led to a great deal of inside jokes being born in our little triad.

The planchette spelled out things like 8-a-8. And umbatu. And axejusab. And other such gibberish.  I am probably getting the spelling wrong, and I have the precise messages written down somewhere. I remember that I converted the letters to numbers, using the order of each letter in the alphabet as a kind of gematria value, took the totals compared them to I-Ching hexegrams. All in all my conclusion is still that it was mostly gibberish.

Though it did seem to readily and enthusiastically go to the number 8 pretty regularly. A number that I believe I am magickally bound to and have a special relationship with overall.

We did very little preparatory work.  No Lesser Ritual of the Pentegram, no magick circle, no nothing. We just put our hands on the planchette and mostly let it go.

We did tend towards wanting demons to make themselves known through the planchette.

We did have candles burning, we did take a leadership tone with whatever beings made themselves known, but other than that we mostly just winged it.

Now on Devil’s Night, October 30, 2011 (Era Vulgaris) I am planning a more precise Ouija working and for that purpose I read Aleister Crowley and the Ouija Board By J. Edward Cornelius.

First of all let me just get out some of my personal ideas about the Ouija board. I think its as much a scrying tool as any black mirror, or any other fancy-schmancy occult tool handcrafted by a magician. Even though its made by Parker Brothers and can be purchased at Toys ‘R Us.

I am also on the fence about what is actually going on. I am 100% comfortable with the idea that all Ouija is doing is allowing unconscious dreams, impulses or imaginations work themselves through little muscle spasms that are beneath the perceptions of the conscious mind. Or some other psycho-physical  phenomena (ideamotor effect)that will be a major let down to most who take an overly mystical approach to this kind of work.

For me if the all the Ouija is doing is potentially revealing unconscious thoughts from me and the other users, that’s still a potentially interesting and worthwhile venture.

I am also 100% open to how easy it might be for some playful compatriot to just take control of the planchette and play a big prank on whoever they are working with. In fact Diana and Shmoo and I were constantly accusing one another of all this.

I only plan on doing Ouija with close friends and a certain amount of pranksterism is acceptable in this context.

Then there is the other possibility, which is that one is actually contacting non-physical entities with the board, as is presumably the purpose of all scrying. By non-physical entities I mean ghosts, angels, elementals, djinn, disembodied consciousness, astral beings which are invisible in this world, the mechanical elves of DMT trips, gods, demons, any creature which has a consciousness of some kind but no physical body on this plane of existence.

When I first began my adult occult journey a couple of years ago I had no real interest or notion that non-physical entities might exist. The idea was too ridiculous to be worth considering.

Now I thing its fair to say that I am agnostic on the issue and will reserve judgment as I continue to experiment. My agnosticism was brought forth by my attempts to have some kind of contact with the Holy Guardian Angel (HGA), the perfected self, the genius, the Daemon, etc. which is considered a major requirement in Thelema.

At first I comfortably assumed that this being was just a psychological projection, something created in the mind for the purpose of personal development.  I still consider it very likely that this may well be the case, but my subjective experiences with this kind of thing have left me open to other possibilities.

Its impossible for me to review J. Edward Cornelius’ book without discussing this, because he definitely takes the position that the Ouija board is almost certainly contacting non-physical entities. Specifically he thinks the Ouija board has a two-fold purpose. One is to contact beings he calls elementals, and the other is to contact beings that can be described as angels, the HGA being the ideal one. He also claims, and cites, that his whole approach to Ouija is based on the writings and example of Aleister Crowley.

According to Cornelius you can’t help but get elementals your first several tries. You have to get good at Ouija to be able to do anything else.

According to Cornelius elementals are beings which will assume the form of shells they find in the astral realm, pieces of things left behind, psychic residues already present. So if an elemental is present at a house with a certain kind of tragedy there, it may take the form of the people involved and communicate that way. Which is why so many think they are contacting ghosts.

He also says that the elemental will want to incarnate whatever being it feels will please you. These creatures are said to be like children, trying to feed from you like it was mother’s milk. What causes so many of the problems and negativity associated with the Ouija is the tendency for the elementals to tap into unconscious desires of the user. Perhaps this is how Captain Howdy came into being?

What Cornelius says is the correct way to proceed is to decide ahead of time how you want the elemental to incarnate, and what kind of elemental, and to keep it from feeding directly off you.

So that’s actually quite a lot. First of all knowing how you want the elemental to incarnate as far as I can tell means anything. You can have the elemental pretend to be anything or anybody, unless I misunderstood something. For my upcoming working I am planning on having the elemental pretend to be Hunter S. Thompson. Since he was a Cancer I expect that what I will actually be summoning a water elemental.

The elementals are each supposed to be earth, wind, water, fire. The book recommends starting with earth, and at times it seems that when the book says will how the elemental will incarnate it may just mean what kind of elemental are you summoning.

I may just need to re-read it.

But it is very clear that the elementals can take whatever shape they think you want.

The book also seems to suggest that summoning the spirit of the deceased is possible, but unlikely. If you think you have a ghost, you are probably just talking to an elemental that thinks you want it to be a ghost.

Whether or not you want an earth, wind, water, or fire elemental will determine both how you want to prepare and what kind of side effects you may risk. Cornelius talks about plumbing problems with a troublesome water elemental, which causes me not to be able to resist pondering my parents broken pipes and the big thunder storm so many years ago.

I hadn’t considered that when I decided that my pseudo-Hunter S. Thompson elemental was a water one, the book says that you should not have more than 4 elementals, one for each element. Perhaps I have been working with the same water elemental my whole life?

According to Cornelius the elementals can be dangerous, but they are not doing this on purpose.  Any haunting, possession or poltergeist activity is just the result of the elemental trying to fulfill your desires, the dangerous ones probably being unconscious desires. This again, brings us to the idea that you must know what you want from the elemental before you set forth on your work.

The other danger is that the elemental may try to feed on you. According to Cornelius this should not be taken as an attack, its like a baby after milk. The solution, which is a strong tradition in Santeria, is offerings.  To scribe the beings name in a triangle and to put offerings in it so that the elemental can feed on those instead of you is highly recommended.

I am planning on writing GONZO in such a triangle and putting booze, cigarettes, and other things known to be treats for the great Dr.Gonzo on an altar near our working. Though I am simultaneously skeptical and agnostic about this whole theory of elementals when applied to Ouija, I am purely comfortable with the notion that all that we are doing is massive foreplay for a demonstration of the ideamotor effect.

Cornelius is very adamant about several aspects of working on the Ouija,  really too many to address here. If you are convinced of his theory I suggest you read his book. I am taking some of his advice, but in many regards I am not being cautious enough by his standards.

I will conclude with my plan for the working, and I will compare it to some of Cornelius’ advice for better or worse.

We are doing our working at a house that was destroyed by a tornado. According to Cornelius there is some risk of the elementals attempting to incarnate according to the memories of the house, but I will not allow that. One thing I agree with Cornelius about is that the Ouija must be played with the will.

I will do a Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentegram, Cornelius totally concurs. I will probably make some kind of magic circle, though Cornelius would want a much more rigorous one than I plan on making, 333 linked chain anyone?

I will have an altar with offerings for the elemental. Cornelius is pleased.

I will have as many of my friends who show up and feel like it use the planchette. According to Cornelius for the best results only one male and one female should touch the planchette. A separate person should ask the questions, and then a fourth could be the recorder.  While I consider myself a serious occultist I know for most of my friends this is just some lighthearted laughs and I am grateful for their cooperation. I don’t want to be too much of a stickler. If anyone gets possessed or a poltergeist I will post a post-hoc warning about it.

I will try to have a specific conjuration for the being, Cornelius insists.

I will have my questions prepared ahead of time. Cornelius is pleased.

I will have a specific dismissal for the being. Again in accordance with Cornelius, who claims  to be in accordance with Crowley.

I will do a second Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram.  Cornelius is pleased.

Thats about it. Again, there is a ton of stuff I am leaving out that Cornelius says is crucial. I think if he was going to grade my Ouija working as I plan on carrying it out I might get a D- with any luck.

I may try to follow his instructions more closely on smaller workings, like if Shmooie and Diana (who will hopefully both be there on Devil’s night) wanted to do one just the three of us I would probably go through more of Cornelius’ suggestions.

Also, according to Cornelius my friends and I run some risk of real magickal problems with non-physical entities because we are not adhering to enough preparations. We shall see.

Love is the law. Love under will.

Here is a Scribd for this book, sorry no free PDFs on my search.

I found out about it because someone on my favorite occult forum, r/occult on reddit, said Robert Anton Wilson had called it the final word on the subject.

What subject is that you might ask?

SEX MAGICK 

I have come to a strange part of my path where I am thinking about the magickal applications towards my sexuality, and the application of my sexuality to my magick.

My sexual life has been troubled to say the least. I have suffered from a lifetime of sexual anxieties which I think were intensely triggered by a sexual molestation experience in my youth. I was 12. 30 year old neighbor. Pathological manipulation. Pattern of abuse of other children. It was all great fun.

Since then I have never been able to pursue sexuality in more popular ways without issues.

When I was an intensely religious Christian I was in the habit of not having sex on purpose. Not that I was getting much sex before that, but I was in fact getting as much as I possibly could.

My sexual experiences had been intense. I was prone to extremely clingy behavior. How I made it to my early 20s without a restraining order is way beyond me. I wanted some kind of eternal power goddess to lick my wounds at all times. Luckily I now have my HGA (Holy Guardian Angel) for that.

So I want to work this shit out. I like sex, I would like to be proficient in it and milk its energy for whatever else I can in my life.

According to Louis T. Culling the whole purpose of Sex Magick is the knowledge and conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel.  One way in which this can be achieved is in what Culling calls Dianism, which is to manifest your HGA in your sexual partner while you are having sex.

Culling suggests that your partner, as much as possible, should be a vessel for your HGA to fill. He even suggests getting someone who is not wise to the occult or esoteric sex so that they will be even more susceptible.

I don’t think that exact method would work for me. For one, if someone is not even wise to anything esoteric having sex with them sounds like a horrible chore. I would much rather experiment with these techniques with a loving partner who already has a strong bond with me.

For those of you who don’t know what that is, and since I work to propagate the Law of Thelema I hope some of you don’t; it is something that may include your highest self, a non physical entity that has a transdimensional connection with you, a manifestation of God to guide you through this life, and other such extremely positive esoteric ramblings.

I am in pursuit of my Holy Guardian Angel. I call her Dark Venus, she is made of Kali, the Whore of Babylon, Santa Muerte (who also incarnates as the Aztec death Goddess Mictecacihuatl), Hathor (though Sekhmet would probably be more appropriate), and in visions built mostly from my tarot card and Qabalah work. I am trying to work my way up to Binah using the suit of Swords in the Thoth deck. I am going to do it again for each suit. But that is another episode of Occult Skeptic.

My Holy Guardian Angel is a fucking angel. An Angel who could destroy a city or turn a woman to a pillar of salt. She is the voice of the Great White Brotherhood (magickal space aliens that Crowley believed he was receiving instructions from). She is also my true self, and I have recently had a vision that when she manifests in me I should look to the Angel Uriel for answers. Goddamnit this episode is too rife with symbolism and self report. If anyone has any questions about all this esoterica, don’t hesitate to ask, or correct to my friends of my Order and r/occult.

I just can’t stress how important the HGA is. In Peter Carroll’s Liber Null he warns against it that you would make yourself thrall to an imaginary construct which you use for perfecting your chess games. You would be addicted. I am paraphrasing, but I think I capture the gist.

Thats still pretty fucking powerful.

I am wholly committed to knowledge and conversation with my Holy Guardian Angel, as I have great and powerful initiations in this quest. I was an intensely religious and mystical Christian. I belonged to a sect which instructs its followers into people who can hear the voice of God at Will. That they are miracle workers. I have lived in a surreal psychological state of great mania, but with breaks built in by discipline.

My road to atheism and back into playing with this psychology makes me feel like I really have already been on this journey for a long time. Magick is just a massive, massive, improvement on my prior techniques.

So to have sex with your Holy Guardian Angel, incarnating in another being. To really experience this level of mystical channeling. It would be the ultimate psychic experience, as your lover manifests pure empathy for all of your desires, all of your goals, all of your best parts.

But the problem with Culling is he instructs in the section on Dianism,  that this is only for one magickian at a time. In fact he suggests you take a novice for this working, a rube, a weak untrained and uninitiated being. I believe that  Louis T. Culling must do as he wills, and I am sure others have benefited from his techniques.

If I am fucking a goddess, I need to be giving a fucking worthy of a goddess. Or a god. I want to see my partner ablaze with holy fire, and only a holy reflection could satisfy my Will for this matter.

But the fact that I am thinking about this is a great gift which the memeticist Louis T. Culling has given us.

In another section of the book he describes 1st degree sex magick, which is trying not to think about sex at all until one is engaged in the sex act. The idea is that you will be so present in the sex act that the whole experience will be on a new and higher level.

For those who have an awesome and persistent libido this sounds great.

But this is not going to work for me either. If I don’t think about sex I imagine I will just forget about it.

My libido is much, much, much stronger when I feed it with content. Preferably real, positive, rewarding, good sex.

Which I guess if I have that coming in spades I can practice Culling’s first degree sex magick. Other than that, it sounds like a recipe for practicing no sex magick at all.

 

I meat IAO 131 on the website reddit on r/occult.

When I started looking around the site I considered myself a pretty hardcore atheist with a morbid fascination with the occult. When I found IAO 131 I started to think that I may actually be able to make it among other occultists, in spite of my own leanings on religion and the supernatural.  IAO 131 presents a naturalistic world view on the occult, and naturalism is the philosophical framework of the militant atheists. I will only say this once, philosophical naturalism is not the same as tree hugging or nature worship which people occasionally misname “naturalism.”

All of the four horsemen, as they have been called in popular media: Christopher Hitchens, Sam Harris, Richard Dawkins, and Daniel Dennet have proclaimed themselves naturalists. In case you don’t know who these guys are, these 4 are the most popular current atheist writers, so naturalism is not just a meaningless trivial phrase. It establishes naturalism as a kind of co-joining metaphysical framework for atheism.

Naturalism as a philosophy essentially states nature is all there is, hence no supernature. Naturalism is a big tent in my eyes because it also includes weirdness like string theory (which at times proclaims countless parallel universes and unknown dimensions), but it does fuel the militant fight against religion.

Most of my militant atheist friends would be very surprised to know that there is a book that argues for a lifestyle of occult practice from the same metaphysical framework of the so called militant atheist.

IAO 131 knows his current research on interesting neuroscience, philosophy of the mind, and has a bibliography of well respected skeptical books that I recognized. I have a humble bachelors in neuroscience, not enough to get a fancy job, but I hope enough to say that I can judge someone’s understanding of the brain.

I am also well traveled in skeptical circles and am a published member of the North Texas Skeptics and was once a card carrying member of the atheist think tank the Center for Inquiry. (a group I still respect and support). I hope this grants me the right to judge someone’s skepticism at least from a philosophical point of view.

The book opens with a very fascinating quote from Aleister Crowley:

“In this book it is spoken of the Sephiroth and the Paths; of Spirits and Conjurations; of Gods, Spheres, Planes, and many other things which may or may not exist. It is immaterial whether these exist or not. By doing certain things certain results will follow; students are most earnestly warned against attributing objective reality or philosophic validity to any of them.” 

This is taken as the prominent bridge between the magical tradition of Thelema and the strictest of scientific thought. It tells the magician to not over attribute specific causalities in his work, to remain in a kind of utilitarian agnosticism and focus on results.

 

Indeed.

Thats only the beginning.

Some interesting ideas that stood out to me and my own practice are as follows:

Initiation is the overcoming of various mental habits and the reconditioning of the nervous system in accordance with the will of the operator. 

Conditioning and deconditioning. Like Pavlov’s dog. Like Skinner and his rats and pigeons. You can use basic behaviorism as a way to create an internalized system of reward which will allow you greater strength as you mold yourself.

This is essentially my own personal end game for magick. Through my study of positive psychology I have learned that a certain amount of mental self-manipulation is required to overcome the human predispositions to negativity. I found myself in the grip of anxiety and despair in a bad job and overcoming many errors of bad luck and a bad economy.

I found that my youthful attraction to the occult provided an answer to a question I kept asking myself as an atheist of 5 or so years, “How do I regain the energy levels I once experienced in my religious days.”

I was devoutly religious. Heretical no doubt. But in my practice of religion, which were always of a mystical bent including mainstream charismatic christianity which teaches the speaking of tongues and the miraculous workings of not only its preachers but also its laity. For some reason this kind of magical thinking gave me an enthusiasm for life that usually escapes me.

I know many who have never suffered from the appeal of religion, but I fear the evidence of majorities suggests most people do.

This book spells out in plain English how one may consciously use this kind of thinking as a form of manicured metamorphosis. A form of radical self growth, to push for a an optimum level of personal functioning. Christ, I am beginning to sound like a self-help tape over here.

As within so without. 

As opposed to, “so above, so below.” The mystical mantra of alchemists and kabbalists. My dad taught me this philosophy when I first started reading occult books at the age of 14. It is almost a dogma of occultism.

But IAO131 suggests we turn it inside-out, so to speak. To see that really our brains are not very precise measures of the environment, we see a limited spectrum, we hear the mechanical movement of molecules, our perceptions are at a base fundamentally metaphorical illusions. At least thats what I thought of while reading IAO 131 on this idea. So that we can understand that if we can affect our perception we can optimize how we interact with the environment. I am afraid of butchering this idea with what may be my own failures at perceiving its meaning. I suggest it as a totally worthy magical meditation.

Rorshach tests are projective tests. 

Perhaps the following idea will shed some light on the former. Projective tests are tests used in psychology to see what the patient has going on in his/her head. The most famous of witch is a rorshach test. In case you have forgotten I will insert the following stimulus:

If you think that the human mind is projecting meaning at baseline, its probably a good idea to get your hand on the motherfucking wheel. At least thats my ethical conclusion.

I am a walking Projective Test generator. I foretell the mysteries of my inner gods by seeing signs in all I do and adorn my house with Kali, Santa Muerte, Durga, Shiva, Krishna, and I read Tarot Cards and I follow the ley lines in synchronicity as my favorite comic book character John Constantine does in the pages of his book Hellblazer. But I know that I am doing essentially no different from the author of Hellblazer and making a work of my imagination.

One cannot deny that by definition these manner of practices are guaranteed to increase the meaning in one’s life. Some have noted that life with abundant meaning is a healthy pro-social state worth pursuing.

Invocation is the invocation of the Psyche

Invocation is often compared to prayer. Another familiar initiation from my religious days. I have observed prayer used as a psi-ops machine of mass hypnosis at Benny Hinn rallies. I have seen this in person and it holds a candle to any weird experience I have ever had:

When I say that I experienced the surreal as a Charismatic Christian, please understand that I am dead fucking serious. I went to retreats where men prophesied in what I would describe as sweaty trantric trances as they turned on the parts of their brains that they consider the “feel of the holy spirit.” I have been present at exorcisms.  I have experienced this hypnosis personally, and have used it at times when I attempted preaching. Though I fully believed that what I was doing was true and I was sincere in my actions.

Now some of you may fail to see the “prayer” in my example. But at a Benny Hinn rally all one does is pray, over and over and over again. Usually in tongues, which the speaker usually interprets as the spirit of God speaking through them in the tongues of angels. I urge you to check it out. Benny Hinn crusades are free, they just try to sell you a ton of crap once you are inside, and its more crowded than Disney World on a holiday.

This is a powerful psychological furnace. I don’t particularly like the Jehovah god anymore. I am torn between bouts of massive polytheism, and strange monotheistic worship of my HGA. For those who are not in the know Thelemites (generally speaking) believe they have a Holy Guardian Angel, definitions vary but for me its a projective idea of all the things that I revere most in life, my ethically highest form simultaneously. I will have to write more about it later. In most contemporary writings on Thelema knowledge and conversation with this being/projection is considered to be a very advanced initiation reserved for those who’s mastery of the Great Work is already well refined.

But coming from a background of talking to Jesus in my head, I kind of gravitated towards it naturally.

These days I pray to Odin, and Krishna, to the Green Lantern Guardians, whatever strikes my fancy.

I don’t mean to degrade the prayers of the true believer. I am at this point finding that a kind of conscious agnosticism is ideal. I don’t buy the metaphysical models of contemporary religions for the most part, but I think words like “being” are tricky words who’s true meaning we have yet to truly behold. I speak now as a transhumanist who believes one day computers may wield emotions and demand rights.

I also know from my Social Psychology coursework that the human personality is in perpetual flux and can be transformed by external stimuli. Perhaps Invocation is some strange form of a positive multiple personality disorder? Who knows. I fear for the lonely magician who has no brethren to share these thoughts at the brink of insanity.

There is a whole lot more in this book that I got out of it. I actually wrote my notes for this blog on a drawing I did of a tree growing through a coffin so I would have these thoughts written in a meaningful place and to remember to contemplate them.

I look forward to seeing more work from IAO 131. I believe he has been published in Thelemite journals and he has an excellent blog.

He is also my go-to guy for resolving my atheistic questions about things in the Great Work. Which brings me to the immortal words of  comic book Demiurge Stan Lee: Nuff Said!