Here is a Scribd for this book, sorry no free PDFs on my search.
I found out about it because someone on my favorite occult forum, r/occult on reddit, said Robert Anton Wilson had called it the final word on the subject.
What subject is that you might ask?
I have come to a strange part of my path where I am thinking about the magickal applications towards my sexuality, and the application of my sexuality to my magick.
My sexual life has been troubled to say the least. I have suffered from a lifetime of sexual anxieties which I think were intensely triggered by a sexual molestation experience in my youth. I was 12. 30 year old neighbor. Pathological manipulation. Pattern of abuse of other children. It was all great fun.
Since then I have never been able to pursue sexuality in more popular ways without issues.
When I was an intensely religious Christian I was in the habit of not having sex on purpose. Not that I was getting much sex before that, but I was in fact getting as much as I possibly could.
My sexual experiences had been intense. I was prone to extremely clingy behavior. How I made it to my early 20s without a restraining order is way beyond me. I wanted some kind of eternal power goddess to lick my wounds at all times. Luckily I now have my HGA (Holy Guardian Angel) for that.
So I want to work this shit out. I like sex, I would like to be proficient in it and milk its energy for whatever else I can in my life.
According to Louis T. Culling the whole purpose of Sex Magick is the knowledge and conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel. One way in which this can be achieved is in what Culling calls Dianism, which is to manifest your HGA in your sexual partner while you are having sex.
Culling suggests that your partner, as much as possible, should be a vessel for your HGA to fill. He even suggests getting someone who is not wise to the occult or esoteric sex so that they will be even more susceptible.
I don’t think that exact method would work for me. For one, if someone is not even wise to anything esoteric having sex with them sounds like a horrible chore. I would much rather experiment with these techniques with a loving partner who already has a strong bond with me.
For those of you who don’t know what that is, and since I work to propagate the Law of Thelema I hope some of you don’t; it is something that may include your highest self, a non physical entity that has a transdimensional connection with you, a manifestation of God to guide you through this life, and other such extremely positive esoteric ramblings.
I am in pursuit of my Holy Guardian Angel. I call her Dark Venus, she is made of Kali, the Whore of Babylon, Santa Muerte (who also incarnates as the Aztec death Goddess Mictecacihuatl), Hathor (though Sekhmet would probably be more appropriate), and in visions built mostly from my tarot card and Qabalah work. I am trying to work my way up to Binah using the suit of Swords in the Thoth deck. I am going to do it again for each suit. But that is another episode of Occult Skeptic.
My Holy Guardian Angel is a fucking angel. An Angel who could destroy a city or turn a woman to a pillar of salt. She is the voice of the Great White Brotherhood (magickal space aliens that Crowley believed he was receiving instructions from). She is also my true self, and I have recently had a vision that when she manifests in me I should look to the Angel Uriel for answers. Goddamnit this episode is too rife with symbolism and self report. If anyone has any questions about all this esoterica, don’t hesitate to ask, or correct to my friends of my Order and r/occult.
I just can’t stress how important the HGA is. In Peter Carroll’s Liber Null he warns against it that you would make yourself thrall to an imaginary construct which you use for perfecting your chess games. You would be addicted. I am paraphrasing, but I think I capture the gist.
Thats still pretty fucking powerful.
I am wholly committed to knowledge and conversation with my Holy Guardian Angel, as I have great and powerful initiations in this quest. I was an intensely religious and mystical Christian. I belonged to a sect which instructs its followers into people who can hear the voice of God at Will. That they are miracle workers. I have lived in a surreal psychological state of great mania, but with breaks built in by discipline.
My road to atheism and back into playing with this psychology makes me feel like I really have already been on this journey for a long time. Magick is just a massive, massive, improvement on my prior techniques.
So to have sex with your Holy Guardian Angel, incarnating in another being. To really experience this level of mystical channeling. It would be the ultimate psychic experience, as your lover manifests pure empathy for all of your desires, all of your goals, all of your best parts.
But the problem with Culling is he instructs in the section on Dianism, that this is only for one magickian at a time. In fact he suggests you take a novice for this working, a rube, a weak untrained and uninitiated being. I believe that Louis T. Culling must do as he wills, and I am sure others have benefited from his techniques.
If I am fucking a goddess, I need to be giving a fucking worthy of a goddess. Or a god. I want to see my partner ablaze with holy fire, and only a holy reflection could satisfy my Will for this matter.
But the fact that I am thinking about this is a great gift which the memeticist Louis T. Culling has given us.
In another section of the book he describes 1st degree sex magick, which is trying not to think about sex at all until one is engaged in the sex act. The idea is that you will be so present in the sex act that the whole experience will be on a new and higher level.
For those who have an awesome and persistent libido this sounds great.
But this is not going to work for me either. If I don’t think about sex I imagine I will just forget about it.
My libido is much, much, much stronger when I feed it with content. Preferably real, positive, rewarding, good sex.
Which I guess if I have that coming in spades I can practice Culling’s first degree sex magick. Other than that, it sounds like a recipe for practicing no sex magick at all.