Posted: February 18, 2011 in Uncategorized

Today I resigned from my current day job as a school teacher. There was a bit of a bureaucratic nightmare of claustrophobic soft patronizing and soft spying. When one is a rocker to the core, and felt a little too much kinship with Pink Floyd’s “We Don’t Need No Education,” you might have a hard time fitting in as a teacher.

Teacher’s get fired for their blogs, and if my administrators knew about this one I would no doubt be fired. I think it is particularly bad at elementary schools, but I don’t know.

What I do know is that in this difficult step, cold hard reason did not provide the energy necessary alone. I needed a little more inspiration.

A heightened sense of purpose.

I do not dismiss the style and the way of the Vulcan style atheists who don’t indulge in my style of thinking, but I hope they can also tolerate mine. Especially since at the end of the day we agree.

However, as I face this new chapter of my life, where I am sacrificing my current footing, making adjustments to the madness of the real world (which I think I had idealized too much from the safety of academic ivory towers), I don’t want to be purely rational.

I want to be inspired.

So I decided that when I signed my resignation letter, I was signing a new contract. In blood, similar to that used by Dr. Faust.

I am selling my soul (which I don’t particularly believe in) to myself. To my perfect self. To my ascending self.

I embrace this act as an act of destiny (which I also don’t particularly believe in). But I can suspend my endless calculus of probabilities in order to take action passionately. To make the most of my life.

To come out stronger, and stronger, and hopefully go much, much farther than reason alone could ever take me.

  1. Tlakatekatl says:

    Gauging from your recent posts elsewhere and the current sad status of the local school districts, it was just a matter of time time before this happened. I think you did yourself a favor by both, deciding to follow your heart and beating the administration to the punch. I know you will be successful in your future endeavors and can’t wait to see where yo go from here. Sometimes the rational thing to do is to take a chance and leap into the unknown. Some might see that as letting your destiny take its course, I see it as a common sense move that you have taken based on personal reason given your actual circumstances. However you explain it, the outcome is the same.

    I wish you “luck” in the next chapter of your life that’s in the process of manifesting itself through the reality you’re forging!

  2. mindcore says:

    You are totally right. It was just a hard decision to make on account of my car payments and student loans. When I first finished college it was a struggle to get hired at 7-eleven, and I had a bachelors in neuroscience!

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